20s

It'll soon be 10 years since I graduated highschool. In the last 10 years, I had done most of what I set out to do when I left highschool. I have done more in certain areas, and missed a few things in other aspects of my life. I went into college, graduated from nursing school, started building my career, worked in the emergency department, explored a few different jobs, dated someone, gotten married, gotten divorced, had my heart broken, made some new friends, got rid of some other ones, and done a bit of traveling. All in all, I think I have actually done more than what I had set out to do. I have been thinking, what do I want to do in the next 3 years to wrap up my 20s?

I will never cease to explore more career options. I have always been one to continually strive for more in this area. I wish to continue to be a go getter and cannot wait to see what other opportunities become available. 

I wish to travel more. I don't think I ended up traveling as much as I had planned to. I have always wanted to go to east side of Canada. And if South Africa happens in December this year, that would be very exciting.  I want to travel more and maybe, at some point, I will work up the courage to travel alone. 

Love life. I have learned this isn't something you can really plan for. I certainly did not plan for my love life to unfold this way. Yet in hindsight, I remember vivid conversations with highschool friends of how I would not get married until after 35! Ha, that really did not pan out as planned! I actually am interested in exploring 21st century dating scene and at least experience some of what people in this generation do. If anything, this is most out of my comfort zone. Never in my wildest dreams would I have imagined I just want to date people. No commitments, no strings attached, I just want to explore what dating and relationships are about in other people's perspectives. I sometimes feel like I'm walking a fine line, and not sure how much of myself I'm losing. I wonder if I am going to lose all faith in relationships and become a completely different person. If someone can fall out of love so quickly, who could I ever trust again. How long am I going to let this haunt me for. So many people tell me someone else will come along, but I don't have the same faith. I can't imagine ever loving someone in the same way again. So maybe don't let myself get involved is a defence mechanism I want to default to. 

Regardless, I want to make the next three years amazing and wrap up my 20s with no regrets.