Talented

"After seeing so many failed relationships, and more than a good handful of broken engagements and divorces, there’s that risk of disillusionment. But one thing I believe with all my heart is that anything that’s worth gaining comes with great risk. And in this life, what is more worthwhile, what is more fulfilling, what is more beautiful, than risking it all for the sake of love?" - Junshien Lau.

He is my favourite photographers of all times. I want to, one day, have my pictures taken by him before I grow too old. He is young, he is fun, he is smart, he is creative, he is talented. He is my celebrity crush. His pictures are so beautiful and they never cease to impress and amaze me.

www.junshien.com

New Year Survey

Where did you begin the year?
Iced Cafe, while the restaurant was still being renovated.

2) What was your status by Valentine's Day?
Happily single :) (didn't know what I was missing out on XD)

3) Were you in school anytime this year?
Until April. But heading back to school soon, woots!

4) How did you earn your money?
Work, work, and WORK!

5) Did you have to go to the hospital?
Haha, way too much and way too often.

6) Did you have any encounters with the police?
For work purposes for one situation only.

7) Where did you go on holiday?
This was a holiday-filled year. NYC, Vegas, Whistler, Portland, and Seattle. But I want more holiday!

8) What did you purchase that was over $1000?
Mmmm my vacation costs.

9) Did you know anybody who got married?
No weddings this year :(

10) Did you know anybody who passed away?
Noone I knew personally.

12) Did you move anywhere?
Nopes. I love our home now. 

14) What concerts/shows did you go to?
Chicago, Phantom, and Wicked while in NY.
Magic show in Vegas.
Eason next week! *excited much*

15) Are you registered to vote?
Yes

16) Who did you want to win Big BrotherANTM?
I don't care.

17) Where do you live now?
Home. Though sometimes I wish I lived in Nanaimo.

18) Describe your birthday.
Waited for Allen to come home, Then we went to Charcoal for dinner and Dot for partfait dessert. Then QE park and River Road :)

19) What's one thing you thought you'd never do but did this year?
Clubbing

20) What has been your favorite moment?
Way too many favourite moments with Allen :)

21) What's something you learned about yourself?
I can cook! 

22.) Any new additions to your family?
Nopes 

23.) What was your best month?
July and September 

24.) What music will you remember the year by?
Lucky and Just the Way You Are 

25) Who has been your best shopping buddy?Myself XD But I loved shopping for Allen. :)
 
26) Made new friends?
Yup! 

27) Best NEW friend?
Allen.  

28) Favorite night out?
July 31. 

29) 3 People you've dated?
Allen, Allen, and Allen :) 

30) Have you kissed any of the three from q.29?
Muah!

31) Kiss any one of the same sex?
I didn't kiss anyone, but Joti kissed me many times XD

33) Something you look forward to before the new year?
Eason's concert!  

34) Where will you start the new year?
At work, sadly :(  
 

Reality Nursing

It's been 4 months since I have started working as an independent RN. No more instructors stalking me, no more too many people to report to, no more being controlled and judged by other nurses. It's been overwhelming, yet there is no doubt that the nursing world has been treating me nicely.

I got lucky. Working in 5 different units allowed me nice breaks from all the diaper changes, bums wiping, and many other odd things we do. I hate it. I hate how our surgical floors are bombarded by handicapped medical patients that don't belong there. I hate how us surgical nurses are doing medical work that we shouldn't be doing. I hate how much I hate being a medical nurse. 

And now. Now that I got even luckier and got to jump into a full time line, I don't really know what to do with this kind of luck. I can't complain, I am one of the few that got into a full time position this quick after graduation. But I worry, I worry now that I am "stuck" at one unit, I will get sick and tired of it too soon. "It" may simply refer to the one unit, though I am afraid "It" might somewhere down the road mean "the real nursing world". 

I remember when I was a student or when I first graduated, how excited I was to be a real nurse. But the last few months have taught me nursing really isn't what I expected it to be. I have limited autonomy in my practice, I have little control over my patient care, and I am given little credit for my knowledge and for what I know is right. 

I want to give the best patient care possible, I want to be a nurse that does more than completing tasks, I want many other things to fulfill what I think is the ideal nursing role. Yet the longer I am in this real nursing world, the more I realize how far I am from possibly becoming that ideal nurse. No, I am not going to quit nursing right now. But if the future of my nursing career continues to be what it has been like in the last 4 months, I might become a statistic and drop out of nursing within 5 years of graduation. 

Maybe I just need to specialize into areas with quicker patient turnover or areas that give me adrenaline rush. Maybe. I hope that's all I need. 

:)

We went to Whistler.

We had fun. :)

We are excited for our next trip. =)

To My Future Hubby

It isn't the first time I've seen it, but it warms my heart and restores my faith every time. What is this that I speak of?...

My patient went home the other day. Her husband and her held hands when leaving the hospital. They are 80 something years old. It warms my heart every time I see that. My patients often tell me their stories with their husbands/wives. I see couples taking care of each other, worrying about each other, and loving each other every day that I work. And they restore my faith in relationships, in marriages.

To my future hubby, when I am 80, old and wrinkly, will you still hold my hand and tell me that you love me? Will you help me fancy up my walker with Winnie the Pooh? Will you bring me to the beach in my wheelchair? ... ... ... Will I ever find you?