To My Future Hubby

It isn't the first time I've seen it, but it warms my heart and restores my faith every time. What is this that I speak of?...

My patient went home the other day. Her husband and her held hands when leaving the hospital. They are 80 something years old. It warms my heart every time I see that. My patients often tell me their stories with their husbands/wives. I see couples taking care of each other, worrying about each other, and loving each other every day that I work. And they restore my faith in relationships, in marriages.

To my future hubby, when I am 80, old and wrinkly, will you still hold my hand and tell me that you love me? Will you help me fancy up my walker with Winnie the Pooh? Will you bring me to the beach in my wheelchair? ... ... ... Will I ever find you? 

I wish...

I wish my feet were just one size bigger, so I can wear many more pretty shoes. I really want to fit into those shoes I saw today!!! :(

I wish I was two inches taller, so I can wear many more pretty clothes.

I wish I was 5 pounds skinnier, also so I can wear many more pretty clothes.

I wish my eyes were just a little bigger, so I can be prettier.

I wish my fingers were longer, so I can play piano better. 

I wish I was smarter, so I don't have to study. And so I can be doctor, so I wouldn't be jobless right now. 

I wish I liked numbers more and was more customer-tolerating and customer-friendly, so I wouldn't mind working at the bank, also so I wouldn't be jobless right now. 

I wish many other things of myself... but I guess if it all came true, I wouldn't be ME. I would also be very broke from buying all the pretty shoes and pretty clothes that I could fit into. =P

Fun in the Gym

I've joined the gym for almost a year now. I like it :) I have spent a lot of frustrating days there to destress before going home, though I go much less now since I don't have a car anymore. 

There's just one thing - there's too many nakedness in the changing room! People, just put on some clothes! It is SO unnecessary for people to sit there naked... texting. I understand if you are in the midst of changing, but don't just sit there! 

Be A Great Nurse

Many people tell me that I will be a great nurse. "You are going to be great nurse!" - I often hear similar lines from my patients, my nurses, and my supervisors. My favourite so far is "here comes my super-nurse!". There are also times when I think I will be a great nurse too! 

Yet here I am, having completed my final preceptorship, wondering how I will become this great nurse that many people tell me I will eventually be. At my ESN interview awhile back, the interviewer asked me what makes a good nurse. I said, "one who cares, with knowledge and experience, makes a good nurse". 

I care.
I only have some knowledge.
I need more experience.
I am determined to be a great nurse.

To Langara Nursing Grad 2010: the end is near. Let's all be great nurses together. :) Cheers!

What are you grateful for?

Three years of nursing. Though I haven't quite seen it all, I have seen enough that I at least know how to handle some of the situations. I have an idea of what to do, how to react, how to intervene, and I am starting to know what to say. I only know very little, I don't know enough, but I know some. 

Today, a newborn baby died in our OR. After working on the baby for 1/2 hour, we did get a faint pulse at some point, but it just wasn't meant to be in the end. 

What do you say to the parents after, who spent an hour with us at PACU? How do you ask the typical questions of "how are you feeling?", "you feeling alright there?", "any pain?", "you feel ready to go up to the ward?"... etc. I was at lost of words. And I wonder how I will ever learn to handle such situations. 

I am grateful that I was born healthy. What are you grateful for?